Dear Olivia, I was really disappointed yestreday, but not at the Maltese team but at the Eurovision

The last envelope started with an 'M'. I hoped it would be Malta . But it wasn't. I kept staring at the screen, oblivious of what was happening around me. All of a sudden I felt tears pouring from my eyes. All the pressure and worries of the past three months suddenly caved in on me. It felt like being hit by a huge block of stone falling over from a cliff. All around me I could see my Maltese friends looking shocked and sad. Everyone who had dedicated so much time and work, saw it disintegrate in a matter of minutes. Mark tried to keep his cool as best as he could. He collected my things and we rushed to the hotel, running away from it all as fast as we could. I went to bed fully clothed, make up and all. I must admit that I spent my first few hours in bed crying and languishing in sleeplessness. Feelings of immense guilt began to seep in. Could I have done more? Wasn't I good enough? What will the Maltese say now that I have not managed to qualify for my country? These are just a few of the thoughts which kept haunting me throughout those painful moments. Finally I slept. Soundly. I woke up at the sound of the door knocking. Sleepily I came out of bed and opened the door. It was mum and dad standing there with tears in their eyes. I knew they were heartbroken. But they tried to hide it as best as they could. Mum is a tower of strength, especially in the difficult times. I hugged her as I did when I was a little girl afraid of the dark. She said ' Olivia, life goes on. You were wonderful and the Maltese loved you yesterday '. I thought she was saying all this to comfort me, to make me feel good. Then I opened my blog, trembling at the thought of what I would find. 70 comments came up for me to read. I read the first one, then the next and the next. Was I reading my own blog? How could it be that after I had failed to qualify, the Maltese were sending me all these messages of support. My eyes swelled with tears, this time tears of joy and gratitude to God for making me Maltese. It was at this point that I found the strenght to write this blog. I want to thank all of you who have been sharing my life for the past few months. You have been great company to me especially when the chips were down. I am so grateful to all the Maltese people who have shown such love and support. We did the best we could, but we didn't qualify. And I'm really sorry for this. But Eurovision is like that. You never know what you're going to get. I look forward to coming back to Malta, and to hugging Milly again. I want to breathe Maltese air again. Hopefully I will be doing so again on Sunday. :) I have to go as I'm slowly but surely starting to pack. And there's cruises from southampton a lot to pack. Believe me. See you in Malta. Lots of love, Olivia.
HI Olivia, of course we will alwys be behind you. It would have been great to see you winnign but you know what? Deep down in your heart you know that you won and we all know that. As your mother said the world goes on and i tell you, you have the best parents in the world. You truly are a maltese hero. We still love you and still are so proud of you. xxx May 11, 2007 at 1:20 PM
hey olivia, il bierah vera dert sabiha u dehrt li tajt 100% tieghek u vera hrigt BOMBA, il eurovision ma tafx xser itik, kuragg u eja ha niltaqu mieghek swt! TAKE CARE!!! AND WE ARE PROUD OF YOU!!! May 11, 2007 at 1:22 PM
OLIVIA YOU ARE SUCH A GREAT PERSON!!! YOU ARE SIMPLY THE BEST!! MALTA AND GOZO LOVES YOU!!! GOOD LUCK FOR THE FUTURE cruises from southampton NOW!! AND DO NOT STOP SINGING, YOUR WONDERFUL VOICE FILLS OUR HEART WITH JOY!!! WE LOVE YOU OL!! May 11, 2007 at 1:25 PM
WE ALL LOVE YOU OLIVIA... you made a very wonderful perfomance!! But ESC is like this... friends of friends and so on! Remember that all maltese where all watching your nice perfomance and we were all proud to be maltese!! xxxx May 11, 2007 at 1:25 PM
Dear Olivia, I was really disappointed yestreday, but not at the Maltese team but at the Eurovision contest organisers. You and all the team were simply fantastic and all Maltese are really proud of you ALL!!!! For us, you have won the Eurovision song contest,!!!! Love, Karen May 11, 2007 at 1:31 PM
Dear Olivia, I just want to tell you that you were awsome last night. You couldn't have done better and anyone who isn't narrow minded or biased will have to admit: the semi final results are just due to the ridiculous televoting patterns in Europe: Eastern Europeans voting for songs from Eastern Europe and the migrant communities in Western European countries voting for their Eastern European home countries as well. The results are simply a disgrace. cruises from southampton Some of the best songs / performances qualified for the final: Serbia and Hungary, but the quality of your performance was equal to these two. The same applies to the songs from Andorra, Iceland, Cyprus, and the Netherlands. The ESC has become a farce, but you should just be proud of everything you have given to all objective ESC fans last night. Please, don